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I've been seriously craving chocolate for the last few days. Not just chocolate, though, specific candy bars. Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, Twix, Take 5. I just kept saying to myself, "If I ignore it, I won't want any tomorrow." For three days I said this. Finally today I gave it up and walked to the store. I am hugely indecisive, and faced with a huge rack of various candy bars, was unable to settle on just one of the brands of chocolate that I had been fantasizing about. I bought all three, plus a peanut butter M-Azing bar, justifying four chocolate bars and a 1 liter Pepsi (which I almost never drink anymore) by saying that I would eat one today and save the rest for the next time I wanted something sweet. This tactic rarely works for me as I have very little will-power, but I still always manage to talk myself into beliving that I will actually put the excess aside for later. I ended up eating the Reese's Cups and one of the Twix as soon as I got home, but it wasn't long before I got into the Take 5 and ate the rest of the Twix. I don't normally binge on sweets, or anything really. I am usually pretty good about just eating until I am satisfied and not over-stuffed, but I always seem to want junk food during "that time of the month".
I wouldn't be 250 pounds if I didn't like my fair share of sweets, but usually I crave more salty foods, and after reading this article I have determined that most of my attempts at maintaining healthy eating habits are foiled by fat."I eat a primarily vegetarian diet and it works for me, but I do notice that some dishes, like vegetable soup for example, are just not as satisfying to me as soups that use a chicken or fish stock as their base. I love vegetables but certain low fat dishes leave me hungering for something... fat. After reading Ms. Schneider's book, I began to incorporate a bit of chicken stock along with vegetable stock or to sauté the vegetables in a generous amount of olive oil before making the soup. I was amazed that adding such a small amount of fat makes it far more satisfying."
I know that fat is essential to a healthy diet, and that particular paragraph rang especially true to me. After eating a big salad or a plate of cut vegetables I still feel like I want to eat, even if I am not hungry. If I give in and eat something else, it usually takes something with a high protein or fat content to satisfy my cravings.
Watching "Supersize Me" last week, I pondered this same issue, wondering if perhaps it's possible to become addicted to fat. Does the 21-Day "rule" apply to teaching my body to not be as dependent on the foods that have made up my primary diet for the last twentyish years? If I can hold out for a full three weeks, eating nothing but vegetables, lean meats, and other low-fat foods, can I break the habit? Do I have what it takes to change my life? Time will tell.
Eventually Oerwinde and I would like to go on a diet so we can be all skinny and hot, and I've heard that keeping a journal of what you eat helps to keep your habits in perspective. So I started this blog. I'm all about the blog lately, and post on my personal blog as often as I can think of something worth writing about. This one just gives me a different forum for my thoughts about food and being fat.
There's a post template to encourage logging food consumption and exercise, but I would like for this blog to be an outlet for frustrations as well. I don't think there's ever been a diet that people didn't complain about, and if I'm going to have to stop eating ice cream and start being more active, I certainly want somewhere that I can let off steam without inundating my regular readers with negative entries.
The Official Diet isn't likely to start until after Oerwinde and I move in together, but it will probably consist of a weekly meal plan (i.e.: Meals on Mondays will always be the same, as will Tuesday, Wednesday, etc.) carefully plotted to contain as little fat and as much fiber as possible without sacrificing flavor. And regardless of when The Official Diet starts, it's never too early to start watching what you eat and being conscious of the things you put into your body, whether it's for health reasons or vanity's sake.
What I Put In My Mouth Today: 10 oz. Odwalla Superfood, 1 Meatballs & Mozzarella Croissant Pocket, four small slices of pepperoni pizza, five 16 oz. bottles of water.
How Much Physical Activity I Participated In Today: Not a whole lot.
How Much I Weigh Today: Probably more than your mom.
